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He Is Showing Up

He Is Showing Up

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It’s been a hot minute since I’ve been on here! I just haven’t felt God leading me to post. Then I got COVID. Then I was hit with the stomach flu! In the midst of the chaos I’ve been trying to pour into to God and focus on what it is He wants me to do. But I often feel too distracted by the lack of order around me and start to wonder “why?”

Despite the chaos something really awesome happened last week and God really showed up for me. I’ve started praying in the mornings that God would just show up for me each day. This particular day I was praying and asking God to supernaturally show up for me and remind me of His love for me. Overall I had been feeling really down, but this lady came into my work and she had remembered our brief conversation from her previous visit. She remembered I was a Christian and being a Christian herself she brought in a sheet for me with scripture on it and a little message. It was talking about how when life isn’t the way we expect or want it we tend to blame God, but God uses the good and the bad to draw us closer to Him. It was the exact reminder that I needed and it brought me to tears. I thanked the woman and knew it was a “God thing.” I immediately knew it was Him supernaturally showing up for me. Just as I prayed and asked that morning.

I am so grateful to have these moments in the tough times to cling to. I forget sometimes going through it all how much I grow in my love for God as I endure the hard times. Our suffering truly does create a softer heart where Gods love can work and move. Without the tough times we’d never move forward. We would think we hold the power and control and forget our need for God.

It’s in these tough seasons, situations, and circumstances that I’ve learned to let go a little and allow God to show up. Because when I make room for Him He always makes a way. God always shows up in ways I don’t expect or can’t imagine. His ways are always perfect. When we focus too much on our will and our ways we miss out on the blessings all around us. What is God doing in your life right now? What is He trying to show you? Ask Him to show up and expect that He will.

Proverbs 3:5-6 “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”

Remember You are Fearfully Made

xoxo Taylor Nicole ❤

You are Seen

You are Seen

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In my deepest fears I’m alone. I’m abandoned. Forgotten. Cast aside. Many times this fear has become my reality. Tonight as I write I feel this pressing word from God “you are seen.” There’s this urgency I feel to write about His love for us because I’ve felt so alone. I’ve felt hidden away from the love of God. Isolated in darkness.

The truth is you are seen. You are loved. Even when we feel our lowest God is right there. When I feel unloved I want to hide myself away. Isolating in my pain. We become fearful our flaws make us unlovable. But not to God. Not to your Abba. He looks at us and sees perfection. He sees the flaws but still calls us worthy – fearfully and wonderfully made. We are truly and deeply known. Seen for who we are and He loves us. There is no greater feeling than that. Knowing that you are truly known and deeply loved to your core.

I constantly need to remind myself of the fact that I am seen. I am loved. When you are your most broken God sees beauty. He sees what we don’t see in ourselves. He sees the heart. Shortly after my breakup God gave me a vision. I was in a garden with Him and He came up to me as I knelt on the ground crying. He lifted my face toward Him and as I looked at Him he told me “You are so beautiful. You are so loved.” In my most broken hour God showed up and reminded me who I am to Him. How God sees me. The thing is there will always be things that people don’t like about you – they won’t “see” you. Not everyone is going to see the real you and like you. And that’s okay because God sees you and He loves you. God doesn’t see us the way others do – He doesn’t see our brokenness and disregard us like trash. He picks up the broken pieces because He sees the beauty in them.

What we might think is a flaw God finds the most special and unique thing about us. There is purpose in our pain. I am still trying to remind myself of that. I still feel the pain of my breakup but I know God has greater things in store. Brokenness leads to our beauty for ashes. God doesn’t delight in our sorrow and suffering. But these trials produce endurance. Something which I am so grateful for. They give us revelation and wisdom. Often times my biggest pain produces my biggest revelation. I think that’s something most find true. We need the trials to draw us near to God. Drawing us closer to the Father gives us the clarity to see our situation – ourselves through His eyes. I find that I don’t realize how far I’ve drifted from Him until I’m placed in these situations.

Pain will come. Loneliness will knock at your hearts door. But God will always uses our brokenness. He uses the painful, broken, messy stuff and He seeps in all the cracks. “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” – Psalm 147:3. He turns our brokenness into one of a kind beauty. When you feel most alone seek God and you will find that you aren’t alone. In fact you are completely seen. Pursued on purpose by your Heavenly Father.

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

Illuminate My Heart

Illuminate My Heart

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“Will you trust me? Will you really trust me?”- Jesus

I know that I’ve been writing a lot about trust lately but I really feel God continually speak to me about it. There are desires of my heart I’ve been praying, trusting, and hoping for but when I’m with Jesus He repeatedly asks “Will you trust me?” I think a lot of times we have our mind made up how on when things should come to pass. But God is challenging me to trust. Trust even when it doesn’t look like I think it should.

He asked me “Will you still follow? Will you trust?” If that thing your hoping and waiting for doesn’t happen will you still choose Jesus? Honestly, I think 8 months ago when I was still in my relationship I would have said yes, but not truly been living it. The relationship I was in God had given me so many warnings. But I continued to twist His word to justify my will and my way. I tried to convince myself things were Gods will and not my own.

Don’t be fooled. Gods will won’t ask you to compromise. You won’t need to convince yourself it’s right. Gods will won’t cause you to go against what His word says. Ever. Don’t settle even when the waiting gets hard. What are you waiting on? Are you doing it your way because it seems like God is taking too long?

Trust me, I know the feeling. God promised me a husband and I am waiting on Him for that. Sometimes the waiting gets unbearable. But Gods way is always better than our way. He has our best interests in mind. Often we go through unnecessary hurt and stress trying to create our own way if only we would trust. Seek God. Ask the Holy Spirit to show you what to do. Because in the end no good thing can come from settling and compromising. Trust me on that as well! I wasted 3 years with someone because I was so desperate to fulfill the promise God gave me. It may feel good to satisfy that desire at the time, but most likely it’s going to be laced with the pain of deception. The enemy wants you to think it’s no big deal. But trust me! Gods prompting – the conviction you feel is protection.

Choose to trust fully. Give your whole heart and God will honor that. God will bless you with the desires of your heart as you surrender all to Him. Choose to trust God and the desires He has breathed into you because no word from God is impossible for Him. If God has promised it He will fulfill His word to you. God honors what you give Him in faith and obedience.

God loves you and you are His most prized possession. Others may have hurt you but God is always for you. He stands guard to protect and prosper you. Is He not worthy of all your trust? All your heart?

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

A Word From God

A Word From God

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“Healing, Restoring, Rebuilding. I am making all things new better than before.” – Jesus

Isn’t it funny we hear a word from God and we think it’s something way different? I often feel that way when I hear God speak to me. I tend to look back and see “Ohaaa that’s what He meant!” After my breakup God spoke that word to me. That He would bring healing, restoration, and rebuilding. I was convinced He was telling me He was healing, restoring, and rebuilding my relationship with my ex. But God gave me revelation about him and the breakup and it opened my eyes to his character. God gave me so many warning signs throughout my relationship and after the fact I saw the blessing that the breakup was. Now months later I see what God was speaking and promising.

God fulfilled His promise to me. But it wasn’t for what I thought. God didn’t mean that He was restoring my relationship but rather He was restoring me. God completely healed and restored my broken heart. He rebuilt me on a stronger foundation of Him than ever before. There’s this trust with God now and it’s like I’ve never known before. He literally carried me through my pain and when I couldn’t stand on my own Jesus was my strength.

It’s funny how Gods promises often don’t happen the way we expect. But rest assured if He promised it He will do it! Gods ways are so much better than our ways. It’s not what I imagined when He spoke those words to me but it is so much better ❤ God brought me out of complete darkness. I was broken and God breathed His joy and life back into my soul. He kept His promises to me and made me whole. I am so much stronger, wiser, full of confidence, and love. I walk in boldness. Armored in the truth of God. I am better than before.

Trust Gods promises even if they don’t happen as you see fit. Because looking back they have a way of surprising you. They leave you in awe and wonder of the way He works.

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

Breathe

Breathe

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“Just Breathe. What are you so afraid of? To show the real you? To be seen for all you’ve been created for?” – God speaks. Distraction plants those seeds of doubt. When you’re too distracted looking everywhere but in your Heavenly Fathers presence you begin to doubt your purpose. You begin to discredit who you were created to be.

I know lately I’ve felt overwhelmed and distant from God. As I sit here wracking my brain I can’t even think because I am so distracted. Our days consist of us being enticed and bombarded by everything. And in the moments of quiet I feel this void. I reach for my phone instead of my fathers hand – instead of the prompting to be in His presence. I can’t help but feel this naked vulnerability as I sit in the quiet alone. Maybe it’s just me, but I long to feel acknowledged and affirmed. My first instinct is to grab my phone, but that distraction will only satisfy this hunger for a short while. This distraction pulls me away from God and the fulfillment that His relationship with me brings. The only truly satisfying thing.

But I feel myself look around as we often do and I begin to compare myself. I start to judge myself and where I’m at with other people. Only growing my dissatisfaction with myself and life in general. And I realized that this distance I’ve been feeling comes from my distraction. I’ve been comparing myself and doing things not because it’s who I am or makes me happy, but because it’s what I think is expected of me.

We all have a certain set of gifts and talents God gifted us and you will NEVER be happy trying to be someone else. I realized a lot of what I was doing was because I wanted to be approved, more valuable, more worthy. But in whose eyes? Because you are already approved, redeemed, made worthy in Christ. Don’t make the mistake of becoming so distracted by this world you buy into the lie you have to be anything other than who you are. You don’t need to do things to gain approval because you’re already approved by God.

Something I need to do more of is weed out these distractions and bad habits. Instead of reaching for my phone I reach for my fathers hand. God will pick you up right where you’re at and guide you back to the right path. Don’t seek to be deemed worthy in the worlds eyes. As I write this God is also speaking to me – and I see that the more I try to fill myself with what this world says will satisfy the more depressed and distant from God I become. No amount of new outfits, likes, or followers will make me whole. I need to turn to my creator and allow Him to fill me.

He desires you. All of you. So lets break free from the distractions. Cut out the lies! Ask yourself what’s holding you back? What are the distractions keeping you from God?

Remember You Are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

I Choose Trust

I Choose Trust

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“So bring on the waves. I’m loved by the one who anchors me. No fear of the grave I walk with the King of victory.” – Red Rocks Worship – I Will Trust

These lyrics and this song fills me with so much joy! As I sing along my heart means every single word. And it just makes this freedom and joy I feel even more apparent. There have been times, as I’m sure you know, as we walk with God that we are mouthing the words but not really living in the fruit of them. That was me.

I tried my hardest to do what was “right” but was still pursuing my own will. I wanted what I wanted. All God had promised to me just in my own way. I compromised and I convinced myself that God could work His way in an unbelievers heart that had no desire for that. I gave my heart and soul in a relationship with someone for 3 years who stripped away every part of who I was. My self worth diminished and the person in the mirror wasn’t me. I said I trusted God – and I did but I was so blinded by fear. Satan had his grips in me and he was trying to steal my purpose and all God called me to be. But God moved. God made a way.

Isn’t it funny how the trials we endure seem to feel like the end of what we thought the dream was. We hold so tightly to the things God is removing thinking that it was His promise, only to get to the other side and realize it was a counterfeit all along. Yeah, I got dumped. Hard core. I thought this was going to be my husband “the promise” but God revealed this mans true character. God revealed his character as well as my own and I needed to find my way back to God. It’s funny how sin has a way of making us desperate. Desperate for the desires of your heart and when you’re desperate you compromise. You are so desperate you are willing to do things your way over Gods way. You lose everything that makes you who you are because you’re operating outside of what God created you to be. Satan wants you to lose sight of your purpose and who you’re called to be. But God has different plans.

Through my breakup God saved me and I felt Him with me through it all like never before. I honestly didn’t know heartbreak could hurt so bad or that you could cry that hard. But God was with me and He carried me through it all. I’ve had heartbreak and hurt before but nothing like this. But there’s something I realize every time and it’s how much stronger that I come out. Through every trial I grow so much closer to God and through it He draws closer to me. Listening to this song I mentioned earlier I can’t help but smile. When I worship I have this undeniable joy like never before. And yes, I am still waiting on promises God gave me but I trust Him. I trust Him like never before because I’ve been through the darkest valleys and He was with me. There’s something freeing about knowing God is right there to catch you when you fall. I know even if it’s bad and my heart gets ripped out God is right there. God is restoring! He is rebuilding! He is healing! And I am stronger! I am better for it all and He has better in store. I came to God broken and lost. Every ounce of my self worth had been wiped away. But I humbled myself before God and I surrendered my heart. A powerful thing happens when you give God full reign of your heart. You can experience full healing.

I am finally feeling more like myself again. God swooped in and repaired my heart and brought joy. The more you begin to find who you are in God the more joy you begin to experience. God has continually given me Ephesians 3:20 – He is doing exceedingly abundantly above and beyond all I could imagine or ask! So I know He will bring His promises. I wait excited in expectation trusting Him because I’ve tried things my way and God has shown me the fruit of my decisions. So now I joyfully praise “bring on the waves” because “I’m loved by the one who anchors me” I know God is with me through the good and the bad. And He is using it all for my good and His glory. The king of kings is with me and for me. He has carried me when I couldn’t stand on my own and He will do it again! So I will continue to sing joyfully even in the waiting! Submit your heart to God and He will bring healing and joy like you’ve never known.

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole