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You are Seen

You are Seen

by Taylor Nicole ♥ 0 Leave a Comment

In my deepest fears I’m alone. I’m abandoned. Forgotten. Cast aside. Many times this fear has become my reality. Tonight as I write I feel this pressing word from God “you are seen.” There’s this urgency I feel to write about His love for us because I’ve felt so alone. I’ve felt hidden away from the love of God. Isolated in darkness.

The truth is you are seen. You are loved. Even when we feel our lowest God is right there. When I feel unloved I want to hide myself away. Isolating in my pain. We become fearful our flaws make us unlovable. But not to God. Not to your Abba. He looks at us and sees perfection. He sees the flaws but still calls us worthy – fearfully and wonderfully made. We are truly and deeply known. Seen for who we are and He loves us. There is no greater feeling than that. Knowing that you are truly known and deeply loved to your core.

I constantly need to remind myself of the fact that I am seen. I am loved. When you are your most broken God sees beauty. He sees what we don’t see in ourselves. He sees the heart. Shortly after my breakup God gave me a vision. I was in a garden with Him and He came up to me as I knelt on the ground crying. He lifted my face toward Him and as I looked at Him he told me “You are so beautiful. You are so loved.” In my most broken hour God showed up and reminded me who I am to Him. How God sees me. The thing is there will always be things that people don’t like about you – they won’t “see” you. Not everyone is going to see the real you and like you. And that’s okay because God sees you and He loves you. God doesn’t see us the way others do – He doesn’t see our brokenness and disregard us like trash. He picks up the broken pieces because He sees the beauty in them.

What we might think is a flaw God finds the most special and unique thing about us. There is purpose in our pain. I am still trying to remind myself of that. I still feel the pain of my breakup but I know God has greater things in store. Brokenness leads to our beauty for ashes. God doesn’t delight in our sorrow and suffering. But these trials produce endurance. Something which I am so grateful for. They give us revelation and wisdom. Often times my biggest pain produces my biggest revelation. I think that’s something most find true. We need the trials to draw us near to God. Drawing us closer to the Father gives us the clarity to see our situation – ourselves through His eyes. I find that I don’t realize how far I’ve drifted from Him until I’m placed in these situations.

Pain will come. Loneliness will knock at your hearts door. But God will always uses our brokenness. He uses the painful, broken, messy stuff and He seeps in all the cracks. “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” – Psalm 147:3. He turns our brokenness into one of a kind beauty. When you feel most alone seek God and you will find that you aren’t alone. In fact you are completely seen. Pursued on purpose by your Heavenly Father.

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

What’s the Root

What’s the Root

by Taylor Nicole ♥ 0 Leave a Comment

Honestly, I’ve been feeling distant from God. Less than myself lately. I swing back and forth and struggle to find a balance. But maybe it’s because I never fully found solid ground? I’ve been so busy trying to “fix” myself. I mean that’s a good thing but I feel God is really the only one that can truly mend and fix you.

God brings the revelation and we can either choose to trust Him or continue things our way. I realized that I am still holding onto this control that’s keeping me stuck. The more I hang onto “fixing” myself the more I block out God. Even though working on yourself is a good thing I think we really need to remember to allow room for God to work. My sense of control on everything is still me running the show my way – I never fully submitted my hurt to God. And I want to trust God but I think part of me is scared to fully give everything. After my last breakup it really caused me to guard my heart and I’m starting to realize even from God.

I’ve been struggling like I said and on some level I know why. I was telling myself dig deeper. There’s a root. This root of rejection and deeper than that abandonment that I haven’t given to God. I’ve been so busy trying to prove to myself that I am good enough, lovable, and worthy. Since my breakup I go through waves of feeling good about myself and my progress. But as soon as I let the reminder of what happened in I feel worse again. I see more progress in my fitness – I feel better for a moment. I buy a new outfit – I feel prettier but for a moment. I get a compliment – I feel more worthy but only for a moment. But that’s the problem with basing your worth off of things or other people. It will constantly shift how you value yourself moment to moment.

I didn’t allow my Heavenly Father to remove the deep root of abandonment. The rejection I’ve been feeling manifests into more symptoms – my desire to be “perfect” and prove my worth. I didn’t really realize all this distance I’ve been feeling is because I never fully submitted my complete heart. I’ve been hanging onto my hurt in fear God would turn away. I think the first step into fully healing is surrendering and submitting yourself completely to God. Even if you’re a little scared. God doesn’t love you because you’re “perfect” He loves you because you’re you. I realized the hard way that the more you reject your heart and what you’re feeling the longer it keeps you stuck. You need to stop rejecting yourself – covering up with the lie of “perfection” and learn to except the beautiful, unique, messy, brokenness that makes you so special. You need to accept you are enough because you are more than enough to God.

It definitely is a process and a struggle. I’m still trying to figure it all out. But I know God sees the brokenness and loves us even more. When we begin to be vulnerable with Him and let Him in we give Him the freedom to show us the right path. He will bring healing, restoration, and rebuilding. He will remove the root. So, what’s holding you back? Where’s the root? Pray and ask God – surrender your hurt and your heart ❤

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

#NoFilter

#NoFilter

by Taylor Nicole ♥ 2 Comments

I felt so unsure what God wanted to me to share this week. But then I was scrolling through all my old photos…scrolling through Instagram and the endless feed of pictures. And I thought “what would my life look like unfiltered?…what would their life look unfiltered?” So many times I find myself comparing myself to others on social media. Even comparing myself to photos of me on social media. Really, what would life look like unfiltered?

What if we stopped comparing. Stopped feeling the need to put a filter over everything. Like being real isn’t enough. I know most images we see online are edited or retouched in some way or another. Still, it doesn’t make me feel any better about who I am. Measuring myself up and all that I am versus the perfection portrayed online. And then I start to question “who am I?”

These images we all overload ourselves with aren’t real. Yet they affect who we are. How we think. How we perceive ourselves. How we live our lives. Personally, I try to live up to this standard of perfection that just isn’t realistic. I go through waves of security in who I am only to crash when I see an image that just seems too unattainable. Just when I start feeling worthy enough I compare myself to someone who seems they have it all together. That’s the trouble with basing our worth off of the worlds standard of success and beauty.

When you turn to the world for worth and value you will never be secure in who you are. This world is constantly changing. Shifting. What’s beautiful today may be considered ugly tomorrow. Fashion, beauty, sex …all these standards are constantly shifting. But when you base your worth on Gods word. The truth. You can be sure you won’t be shaken. Gods word never changes. Just like Psalm 139:14 says “You are beautiful for you are fearfully and wonderfully made.” God created you to be unique! That really is amazing when you stop and think about it. There never is or will be another you- EVER! So why not be the best you that you can be? No one else could ever be a better you!

When I’m feeling down I have to sit and remind myself of what Gods word says about me. I can sit and compare myself for hours and have a pitty party. Or I can celebrate all the gifts and talents God has placed in me. God will never ask you to be someone else – so we might as well stop expecting ourselves to be. I think its easy to look at everyone’s perfectly filtered curated lives on Instagram and think they have no flaws. But the truth is perfection doesn’t exist and we all fall short. I know it can be hard to do but look at all the amazing qualities you do have. No one person or their life is perfect no matter how it looks online. Start looking at things as if there were no filter.

Remember…YOU are Fearfully Made

xoxo Taylor Nicole