Today I was reminded of how precious we are to God. Despite feeling forgotten, lonely, or unloved in certain seasons He has never left us. He is waiting for us to look up and realize He is right there holding us. He is the only way. He knows every answer to all the questions we are inquiring of. He is saying “rest in me.”

As I look back on my life and relive all the abuse and trauma…I see Gods hand through it all. I’m amazed at all I’ve went through and how God has used it for my good and His glory. I’m in awe of God and His goodness. No matter what happened or how bad it was He was always there. In my darkest moments no matter how far I ran from Him, He was there. When I realized His love was all I needed, He was there. In the back and forth of living for this world and getting lost in it…He was there to pull me out and draw me close into His loving arms.

No matter how many times I got off track and lost my way He redirected me. I was never out of His sight. We are precious to Him. Deuteronomy 14:2 “For you are a people holy to the Lord your God. Out of all the peoples on the face of the Earth, the Lord has chosen you to be his treasured possession.” If you seek Jesus and His will for your life He will always show up bigger than you can imagine. He will always give us clarity and direction. He won’t let you go astray. He leads us with peace. This should be our compass in knowing His way.

3 years ago I was living anxious, insecure, and afraid. I had my ups and downs with following the Lord as everyone does. I had been in a very unhealthy and toxic relationship at the time. Today actually marks 3 years to the day that we broke up. That break up was the most painful and traumatic thing I ever went through, but God was with me every step. It was not a relationship I should have been in and I constantly prayed asking God to help me leave it. At the time I wasn’t strong enough to leave, but God showed up and made a way. Even though the break up was painful I felt God’s presence with me the second it happened. A weight was lifted and my prayer was answered. Not only was my prayer answered, but my relationship with God was also restored. This relationship had me in a fight of tug and war with what God wanted for me and what the world wanted for me. I was tormented daily with the lies of the enemy. But once that relationship ended God began to open my eyes to the truth behind the lies and abuse. The last 3 years God has continued to pursue me. In my pain He held me. In my weakness He carried me. In my doubt He restored my mind. Through all the struggles Jesus was right there.

As you draw near to Him He will draw near to you. He knows your heart and when you are genuinely pursuing Him and what He has for you. Despite my past and the ups and downs I always pursued Jesus. I always desired His will and He always protected me. Even if I didn’t see it at the time I look back now amazed the be where I’m at today. Sometimes I think we need to go through the trials and darkness just so we can realize how much we need Jesus. John Bevere said “The one who is afraid of God stays at a distance. The one who fears God stays close.” I have lived through seasons as I’m sure we all have outside of God’s will. Yet, He lovingly teaches us through our decisions and we must deal with the consequences. I’m so grateful for all I’ve been through because without it I wouldn’t be who I am today. I know what it is like to live outside of Gods will and I don’t desire it one bit. It’s in His loving embrace that I am free. I feel safe to be me and I know everything is okay because my father is holding me.

No matter what your situation looks like right now just know that what He has for you is good because He is good! Draw close to God and He will draw near to you. Be encouraged that nothing is too big for Him. God will use everything for your good. It’s never too late for Him to show up, all you have to do is ask. Your past doesn’t matter to God, He cares about your heart. God can restore and redeem what the enemy has tried to take. He is is asking you to just rest in Him. Jesus will take care of everything weighing heavy on your heart. Give it to Him and rest trusting He will do all you need.

Ps…Remember Your are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole