loveyourself – Fearfully Made by Gods Design

In my deepest fears I’m alone. I’m abandoned. Forgotten. Cast aside. Many times this fear has become my reality. Tonight as I write I feel this pressing word from God “you are seen.” There’s this urgency I feel to write about His love for us because I’ve felt so alone. I’ve felt hidden away from the love of God. Isolated in darkness.

The truth is you are seen. You are loved. Even when we feel our lowest God is right there. When I feel unloved I want to hide myself away. Isolating in my pain. We become fearful our flaws make us unlovable. But not to God. Not to your Abba. He looks at us and sees perfection. He sees the flaws but still calls us worthy – fearfully and wonderfully made. We are truly and deeply known. Seen for who we are and He loves us. There is no greater feeling than that. Knowing that you are truly known and deeply loved to your core.

I constantly need to remind myself of the fact that I am seen. I am loved. When you are your most broken God sees beauty. He sees what we don’t see in ourselves. He sees the heart. Shortly after my breakup God gave me a vision. I was in a garden with Him and He came up to me as I knelt on the ground crying. He lifted my face toward Him and as I looked at Him he told me “You are so beautiful. You are so loved.” In my most broken hour God showed up and reminded me who I am to Him. How God sees me. The thing is there will always be things that people don’t like about you – they won’t “see” you. Not everyone is going to see the real you and like you. And that’s okay because God sees you and He loves you. God doesn’t see us the way others do – He doesn’t see our brokenness and disregard us like trash. He picks up the broken pieces because He sees the beauty in them.

What we might think is a flaw God finds the most special and unique thing about us. There is purpose in our pain. I am still trying to remind myself of that. I still feel the pain of my breakup but I know God has greater things in store. Brokenness leads to our beauty for ashes. God doesn’t delight in our sorrow and suffering. But these trials produce endurance. Something which I am so grateful for. They give us revelation and wisdom. Often times my biggest pain produces my biggest revelation. I think that’s something most find true. We need the trials to draw us near to God. Drawing us closer to the Father gives us the clarity to see our situation – ourselves through His eyes. I find that I don’t realize how far I’ve drifted from Him until I’m placed in these situations.

Pain will come. Loneliness will knock at your hearts door. But God will always uses our brokenness. He uses the painful, broken, messy stuff and He seeps in all the cracks. “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds” – Psalm 147:3. He turns our brokenness into one of a kind beauty. When you feel most alone seek God and you will find that you aren’t alone. In fact you are completely seen. Pursued on purpose by your Heavenly Father.

Remember You are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

“Just Breathe. What are you so afraid of? To show the real you? To be seen for all you’ve been created for?” – God speaks. Distraction plants those seeds of doubt. When you’re too distracted looking everywhere but in your Heavenly Fathers presence you begin to doubt your purpose. You begin to discredit who you were created to be.

I know lately I’ve felt overwhelmed and distant from God. As I sit here wracking my brain I can’t even think because I am so distracted. Our days consist of us being enticed and bombarded by everything. And in the moments of quiet I feel this void. I reach for my phone instead of my fathers hand – instead of the prompting to be in His presence. I can’t help but feel this naked vulnerability as I sit in the quiet alone. Maybe it’s just me, but I long to feel acknowledged and affirmed. My first instinct is to grab my phone, but that distraction will only satisfy this hunger for a short while. This distraction pulls me away from God and the fulfillment that His relationship with me brings. The only truly satisfying thing.

But I feel myself look around as we often do and I begin to compare myself. I start to judge myself and where I’m at with other people. Only growing my dissatisfaction with myself and life in general. And I realized that this distance I’ve been feeling comes from my distraction. I’ve been comparing myself and doing things not because it’s who I am or makes me happy, but because it’s what I think is expected of me.

We all have a certain set of gifts and talents God gifted us and you will NEVER be happy trying to be someone else. I realized a lot of what I was doing was because I wanted to be approved, more valuable, more worthy. But in whose eyes? Because you are already approved, redeemed, made worthy in Christ. Don’t make the mistake of becoming so distracted by this world you buy into the lie you have to be anything other than who you are. You don’t need to do things to gain approval because you’re already approved by God.

Something I need to do more of is weed out these distractions and bad habits. Instead of reaching for my phone I reach for my fathers hand. God will pick you up right where you’re at and guide you back to the right path. Don’t seek to be deemed worthy in the worlds eyes. As I write this God is also speaking to me – and I see that the more I try to fill myself with what this world says will satisfy the more depressed and distant from God I become. No amount of new outfits, likes, or followers will make me whole. I need to turn to my creator and allow Him to fill me.

He desires you. All of you. So lets break free from the distractions. Cut out the lies! Ask yourself what’s holding you back? What are the distractions keeping you from God?

Remember You Are Fearfully Made ❤

xoxo Taylor Nicole

Fearfully Made by Gods Design

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