Like nothing I’ve ever known. This love that draws me in and fills me with unspeakable joy. Here in the silence I find Him. Here at the foot of the cross I find myself. I am free.

This last year has been crazy. I know we’ve all been through things. Personally, I dealt with heartbreak. Extremely traumatic it took what felt like forever to get over it. Though painful this season of singleness has brought the greatest joy. I let go of the old me and where I thought I should be. I forgave myself but also those that hurt me. In these moments God is cultivating us to be who He’s always planned for us to be.

Singleness can hurt. Be lonely. Create a longing in your heart that you just can’t take. But singleness also prepares you. The longing pushes you deeper into the Fathers arms. There in His loving embrace He heals the hurt and restores you. Preparing you for the next season. Looking back through the heartbreak I see God’s blessings. We tend to look at the things led with our emotions but God sees the bigger picture. When you start seeing things from His point of view it humbles you to a place of praise. When we have the Kingdom perspective it makes letting go of the past, the pain, that person…a little bit easier.

His blessings are woven into every detail of everyday. I see His hand in my story. His grace covering me at my lowest points and lifting me up in His love. In singleness you may endure pain but you also can embrace growth. You weep out in loneliness but learn to dance because you free in your own presence. You rediscover who you are without the need to perform. You realize you were enough all along. In His presence I found myself. I found freedom. The freedom to be myself because I let go of who I was “supposed” to be and accepted who God has called me to be.

Looking back I see the blessings this last year has brought. Pain has produced perseverance. Codependency and a need for love has birthed self confidence. Trying to control my chaos has continually has pushed me towards the cross. He has promised blessings. He is is declaring over you “There shall be showers of blessings.” Ezekiel 34:26.

Remember You are Fearfully Made

xoxo Taylor Nicole